Blog Post: This is 50

The day finally came, my 50th birthday. It was so weird, didn’t I just celebrate turning 40. It didn’t seem real, so much had changed in what felt like such a short time. Just 10 years ago I had a busy home, managing 3 kids who were in elementary and middle school and now in three weeks we’d be moving my youngest into her college dorm. How did I get here? And what do I do with myself now. The reality of it all sunk in. My daughter kept asking me, ‘Mom are you gonna cry when you drop me off at school?’ The honest answer was ‘I don’t know’. I thought back to 2020 when my son graduated HS during a pandemic and the girls were trying to navigate school, friendships and a global pandemic. That was tough, I was working from home and trying to adjust to completely new territory with three teenagers. Just a few years before that I had already begun paining the different scenarios of when the kids graduated HS and would need me less. I joked with my friends that I would probably be a total mess when the day came that all three left the house. The strange thing was, I was weeks away from this and I was not sad, instead I had this sense of excitement about a fresh start coming around the corner.